Sigh.

Today is the last day of exam, which marks the start of a month holiday. But how much fun can i have? According to estimations that i learn from a useless lecturer. Let's see:

Dissertation - 30%
No vacations - 20%
Time used to stress about Dissertation - 10%
Needs to save money - 15%
House chores - 10%

There goes my, 85% of fun during this holiday.

I'm not going to post emo stuff on FB, to avoid being a laughing stock, again.
Nor am i going to take it out on twitter, to avoid, public and general nuisance.
Dear blog, you are all i have now. =(
I have so much negativity going on in my mind right now, but there are no one available i can go to.
Come to think of it, I have not really changed my inner self since last time. Always thought i have..since i'm more sociable and treating people with a smile and more patience and all. My mind is still the same. Full of anger, frustration, temper, grudge.

I don't know why i boast about you so much, maybe because you're so perfect and i'm not =/
It's just depressing how............
But this is life, i just hope someone will like me for who i am and make me the first choice.

New car phobia

Today's accident
has taught me alot

Now,
say goodbye money
GOODBYE MONEY
=(

I'm just glad no one was hurt

lolipop

I am sleepy, but i don't want to sleep thinking that i might miss out on..things.

But if i continue waiting, and nothing turns up, then i am just being silly all along.

So what should i do?

I don't think he'll reply me eh..but what if he does?

Sometimes, i hate being a girl.

Kill me now

I can never have a good time in life
Everytime when things finally go right in my life,
just when i'm about to hope for the better,
*POW*
BAD THINGS JUST HIT ME IN THE BUTT

And then the cycle goes on and on and on and on and on and on.
Sometimes, i do hope that the world ends.
Ok, that is a weetle selfish right?

So, let me rephrase, i do hope my world ends. Honestly, i do.
So tired of being the one who tries to smile my way to happiness when it is never there.

You may say things like 'you should be fortunate,people in other country and yadi-yadi-yada'.
Pft, come on, tell me something i don't know.
It is not that i want too much, i know, i am more fortunate than a lot of living things out there.
Just, the timing of events that occurs in my life, they are just wrong.

Sometimes, i wish that you will take my place.
I wish that i'm the one suffering.
I don't appreciate life as much as you do.
You're half dead and yet you're trying to survive, wanting life more than ever
I have all the necessities i need to keep me alive but i still want more.
I really don't deserve this.
Just, please.

Hangover part 1

I am never touching

this
12%
from Belgium(i think)
and this
14.2%
from France

This is the 2nd time i got sick from drinking alcohol
this is the worst one so far
vomited 2 times in public toilet
once on the roadside while walking back
and countless times at home
in the kitchen, toilet and living room
until 3a.m.
Finally managed to sleep,
when i opened my eyes,
it was 7a.m
my mom was awake
I tried to hide it from her,
but she's too smart
-.-
after she found a plastic bag with puke in the rubbish basket

I'm surprised she was not mad,
yet she still fed me panadol and asked what was the celebration for
Oh..
i <3 my mommy =)

Yesterday was the longest day i spent with ma crew
FLAVA FRESHZ
No pictures up yet,
but soon
I bet the rest are still sleeping
>.<
Not all attended the gathering though
Only:
Bboy Santa
Bboy Xtra
Bboy Parry
Bboy Caesar
Bboy Solid
Bboy Nickz
Bboy Sky

and then there's me
(who's trying my best to fit in)
Have not really thought of a name yet
It's either Rooky or Silvermare now

Til the next news
I'm out
=)

Nah!

If you ever ever read my blog ever..

This is for you
NAH
Take that sucker!

How much i wish you guys would
TARE TOI UNE BALLE SIL TE PLAIT

Hence

I hate you
For not knowing how i feel
I hate you
For not caring
I hate you
For not bothering

I hate it
For caring too much
I hate it
For getting nothing in return
I hate it
That i'm always there
But you're not

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Why don't you ever care?
Why are you always not there?