Kill me now

I can never have a good time in life
Everytime when things finally go right in my life,
just when i'm about to hope for the better,
*POW*
BAD THINGS JUST HIT ME IN THE BUTT

And then the cycle goes on and on and on and on and on and on.
Sometimes, i do hope that the world ends.
Ok, that is a weetle selfish right?

So, let me rephrase, i do hope my world ends. Honestly, i do.
So tired of being the one who tries to smile my way to happiness when it is never there.

You may say things like 'you should be fortunate,people in other country and yadi-yadi-yada'.
Pft, come on, tell me something i don't know.
It is not that i want too much, i know, i am more fortunate than a lot of living things out there.
Just, the timing of events that occurs in my life, they are just wrong.

Sometimes, i wish that you will take my place.
I wish that i'm the one suffering.
I don't appreciate life as much as you do.
You're half dead and yet you're trying to survive, wanting life more than ever
I have all the necessities i need to keep me alive but i still want more.
I really don't deserve this.
Just, please.