JiNjABoJa

When i don't reply someone, it only means i'm busy or i have nothing to say or i really just want to avoid that certain someone. But that's just me, i don't know.

So what do i do when i'm the one being ignored?

Well, definitely it's not the first time. So what, don't bother until they come looking for me at the last minute? Or just don't do my part and let them blame me in the end? I really don't know.

Or maybe it's my fault for not committing to nudge and nudge and nudge them until i get a reply. Well, that will just make me look like a despo psycho now wouldn't it? Besides, it will bother them more.

So..i don't know. What CAN i do?

Shopping!

Hey..
I went shopping today
Well,
Actually yesterday that's just 1 hour and 35mins ago

Had fun =)
It is kinda like my 1st time shopping,
like..
really shopping on my own
I mean without my family of course

I din't shop on my own
Got my hommie with me
=)))
Not sure if she'd like me to publicize her name though
But really love her!
Thankx for making my day

Though i kinda felt a lil sick in the end
I think it's just too much walking
LOL
Guess i'm not really a shopping material

But
we fulfilled our promise
of....
watching NARNIA!!
woohoo!

Enjoyed my day
And i can't wait to wear my new clothes!
XD

CAN'T WAIT TIL WEDNESDAY
2nd Feb

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
=)

~Curses~

I..need..my..pendrive...

*mojojojo way*
To the guy who stole it...Curses....


Here are some songs that should be looked into




PINK & AVRIL LAVIGNE ROCKS FOREVER. WOOHOO

OMG-ness

I'm darn tired. But I don't want to stop and go to sleep because it is super weird times like these when my ideas keep coming in.

Why now....because it's the second last day to finish this assignment.

Who ask me to be so last min right. ZZZZZ..

Longing for my bed, longing for breakfast and lunch tomorrow. Why do i smell pizza all of a sudden =/ *sniff sniff*

OMD! Stop blogging girl, continue with your work before you run out of things to write again. Geez!

Luke Benward *smiles*

Facts of life

Hey
Imaginary readers of mine =)

So I've been through a lot of craps lately
My sis has chicken pox
Trying my best not to play with her
It'll make her poxes "YHCTI"
(spell in backwards,it's a family joke thing)

So, I'm so down.
Can't FB
Can't concentrate on my work
etc..

Life is just unfair
But if you look at it the other way
"Life has to be unfair to make everything else seem fair"
Ex:
You lose, they win
You cant win all the time, that's totally unfair
or..
Super heroes and villains
Super heroes always come in empty handed,
whereas villains have gadgets and gizmos
But, superheros have extraordinary powers
So there, it's equal

Here's a good comic site that can cheer you up
http://www.nedroid.com/
Those with Beartato and Reginald
crack me up =D

And here are some quotes about life:
"Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live"
"It's hard to love someone and not be loved in return, but what's more painful is to not have the courage to let that person know how you feel"
"Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes"- Oscar Wilde
"The diff between school and life :
In school you're taught a lesson and given a test,
In life you're given a test that teaches you a lesson" - Tom Bodett
"Telling a teenager the facts of life is like giving a fish a bath"- Arnold H.Glasqow
"One day your life will flash before your eyes, make sure it's worth watching"
"The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do"- Walter Bagehot
"Sometimes it's the smallest decision that can change your life forever"- Keri Russell

And some original quotes that can be seen in my posts
If anyone actually reads it of course

Why I din just put down the link and let you see the quotes yourself?
Too free?
Maybe because by filling my time typing this
gives the lazy mind of mine an excuse to not do my work
Maybe these quotes reflects my life
Hmm..

Maybe i should really get back to work now?
Maybe a game of L4D first?
Maybe someone to talk to?

Nah..
Let's just try to finish it up once and for all k
Good..

Sore Loser

1 thing i hate bout being me is i cant stand to lose.
Why i'm not putting this as a private post is cuz i already have a post in that blog about me being a sore loser.

So what the heck la, everyone's got their weaknesses and negativity.

I suck, ya ya, i know. You suck too. I disappointed myself and worst of all, my lecturer who had hopes for me. Can i say bad words??

Nah..better not la. So many things i feel like hitting now, so many people i wanna shout at rite now.

What can i do? Breathe, jus breathe. Wait, F is just a letter, i can use it. It can stand for many words ya: fish, frog, food, fork, faculty, facility......ok then.

F(ish) those whom are stupid, like me
F(eet) those who cant do anything rite for 1 moment , like me
F(oam) those who always beat me in everything
F(ate) those who always say their not good but in fact they are, by the proof from their results
F(an) those who ppl always put hopes in but got let down in the end, like me
F(ortress) everyone of u
I hate me. I hate u.

Pms? No, but it'll pass

And seriously:

1. Stop telling me what i can and cannot do. I know me, i know what i'm capable of and what i'm not.
   
2. Stop telling me that i can do these many things when i know i cant.
3. Stop telling me what i am and what i'm not. AS IF u know me so well.
   
4. Stop telling me that things will be alrite when they'll never be.
   
5. Stop having ur own say for EVERYTHING & ANYTHING! Everybody have their own opinions, u dont have 2 say out everything. Think through what u wanna say 1st b4 u make a fool of yourself or hurt ppl's feelings.

U know the song "Who Cares" by Sara Bereilles :

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, babe
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Those in red is dedicated to you.

Dying Inside

Facebook is killing me softly.

Every morning i wake up telling myself it's a good day to start my assignment but the first thing i'll do when i on the comp is facebook.
It's bad enough that i only have FB, imagine what or where will i be if i have others like twitter and etc.
For 4hours i'm in front of the laptop fb-ing.
Whether or not i have anything to fb about, i'm stil fb-ing. WTH. And now i'm feeling sleepy. FML

Alors?

So, here's the thing. I've been throwing all my emotions at my secret blog, but everytime i wrote a post it doesnt really help cheer me up because i have this urge for someone to read it n know how i feel or help calm me. Though it's like my diary, guess i'm just not some1 who can keep so many things inside without ppl knowing. Not that i wan attention from any1, like what me n my fren would say about som other ppl in coll =/, i only hope that those ppl can at least change for the better.

This is my 2nd post. Well, i wanted to share my interest towards horses but the minute i posted this blog in public something dint feel right to me as it has always been sorta a personal thing, so i kinda deleted this blog but it has a "dunno-how-many-days-on-hold" thingy in case i wanna keep it again. So, i guess the 'on hold' thingy was effective after all.

In case u r unaware of it, ppl tend to get upset over certain things they have that they think don. Either their blind or jus too darn greedy. So if any1 have read my secret blog, not that u have cuz it's secret, haha..i actually ditched bout some ppl a few times because of this.

Truthfully, i really don mean to, it's just getting on my nerves and i cant really think of any other ways to let it out. Last time i had my way out, but now i'm 'mature' enough *ehem* to think of an alternative way of letting my anger out. So, since ppl are blogging nowadays, actually since long time ago la, but i refuse to do it cuz i used to blog last time but was too lazy to keep it updated so ya..i'm doing it again since i wanna clear some part of my mind.

Erm, i'm kinda noob at writing blogs so forgive me if u don understand wat i'm writing. Lol..(IF ANYONE WILL ACTUALLY READ OF COURSE).

*Back to topic*
Ok. So, ya, maybe i'm just jealous of what ppl have sometimes, but who doesnt?

I'm not pointing fingers, just in general. If ur ever jealous of something, by things i don mean practical or physical things like books or pens or shoes, those can get easily 1 la..jus work and earn money. By things i mean talents or skills. You cant learn a talent, but u can learn a skill. However it will take time if u really wanna achieve it. So if ur ever jealous of what ppl have that u don, just work hard on it. Or, find something else to do that might open a path in discovering ur own TALENT.

Not everybody can be what they want but they are bound to be what they are.

And for those of u out there, who are jus plain blind or ACT STUPID or greedy and always unsatisfied. Just open ur eyes la, accept comments and compliments, for improvements and motivation. If ppl say ur good, ur good, but be humble bout it, confidence might disappoint u sometimes. I'm saying this based on experience.

Ok la, mayb sometimes to u, ur not really doing things up to ur expectations. Then just improve on it, think positive. If u get all emo and shit, those ppl who cant even start must be slitting their wrist ady la?

Actually, now, i don think this post is directed to anyone specifically ady cuz i am 1 of them whom gets jealous and whom is unsatisfied,SOMETIMES. (What a hypocrite!) Alors? I'll try to take my own advice then. But still, it just pisses me off for ppl to get mad over things like this. For me, yes i do get mad but not until the extend of throwing my temper at other ppl.

Let's all be rational now shall we?

Need An Empty Mind

Is there anybody in the world out there who can explain what's wrong with me?
A week has passed but I have no progress at all in my work.
Where's that eagerness to get things done, where has that fire vanish to?

What is this feeling inside?
In need of care and attention. I need my horse, no, not the prince on the horse. The horse

Look at that beauty

I hope to feel you, touch you, brush that pretty majestic mane of yours.

Somehow there's a spiritual connection between me and this beautiful animal that exists in this oh-so-cold world. A minute ago, i was in distress, now, looking at them, my worries are in the back of my head. Knowing that after all this suffering, i'll be with them in the future, they'll be waiting for me in that farm that i own in the future, outside my simple farm house running freely, loving life that is taken care of so well by me.

Man..i just love horses.

If ever there's a horse spirit out there. Pls, pls bless me with your never ending strength. Give me all the help there is to clear my mind and start concentrating on what i have to.

Maybe i'm just sleepy. Dear God, pls bless me. I will wake up tomorrow with the inspiration to get my assignment. Goodnight dear horses out there =) I will be with you soon.