Trauma

Yet, another day has flew pass without any progression in assignments.

This afternoon shook me with a flashback of fear. And then i started imagining what if things end up like Professor X, in a wheelchair. "No no, everything will be fine" i thought to myself. Knowing it is probably not a right time to laugh, i still created silly jokes here and there to calm the situation. We laughed, with shivers in our laughter, awkward situations.

I just hope things will be better tomorrow. It hurts, to see her like this.

Adding on to the fact that i will not be around tomorrow, makes me even worried.

Please, make tomorrow a worthy one, please make some progress. Please, just.

Someday

Here's what i have been replaying for the past minutes.
After watching 'Waiting for Forever'.
I love Tom Sturridge.
And this song, makes me tear up.

Syok ah!

Have you ever watch Friends?

There was this episode where Chandler took a puff from a cigarette

after quitting it for a long time

Can you imagine that feeling he was having?

That satisfaction?

Well, i had that feeling today

When i played BASKETBALL

The addiction, the heat, the sweat, the thrill!

It's like a drug!

Awww..

It's all coming back to me now.

Why did i ever stopped?

Now i have to train back

i hate this part right here

Alright

Next topic,

honestly, i know is like a super small issue

but, i'm mad

because of something real stupid like..

there are no nice movies to watch when i have the chance to watch a movie

or the fact that

people always ask me to decide on what to eat

I'm a Liberian

We can't decide

Right now,

I'm broke til there is a hole in my pocket because

i keep digging in it looking for at least a cent

if you really must know?

I would just drink xut cha

Furthermore,

i don't eat dinner.

Last thing on my mind

ASSIGNMENTS

Please give me the strength and brain power to finish during this week

My movie list

1. Friends with benefits

2. The smurfs

3. Transformers 3

4. Change up

5. Crazy stupid love

6. The help

7. Monte Carlo

One of the things

Why does this happen to me nowadays?

It's 9 a.m
I'm up
though i slept at 2.am last night.

My sister once told me eye bags are permanent
Oh mon dieu!
I'm gonna look like there is 2 handbags hanging beneath my eyes when i'm old
=(

I hate this
So sleepy
Mais je ne peux pas dormir

Don't know why
j'ai peur
I'll fall.........................
*few words missing there*

I know you're confused
I can like white and black at the same time
But so what
There is no rule stating
you cannot like rock if you like pop right
This is just me
I confuse myself all the time

Another thing to add in this post is
SELFISH people are increasing day by day now
few of them, i see everyday

Go on and say i have PMS
The last i checked was
Things that are meant for public use
have no right to be personalized or customized by your own liking
It is not yours for piece sake
Leave it

You're always this selfish huh..
That spoilt girl when younger
Always got what you want.
I wish you can see how much people put through to tolerate your attitude
You just won't get it.
Never,
because that is just how you are.

Sigh..

Well?

There was only one class today, and i just come to my sense to notice how fast time flies.
After class, decided to stop by the baking shop to buy me some almond powder.
Guess what it's for? You're right...Macarons! =) (For a reason)

Lalala Lululu. After hours of baking. Damn oven of mine disappointed me like mad.
Long story short, i'm never baking this babies at home again.

Also discovered country songs turn me on =p

The Me

Woke up from a nightmare this morning.
Horror + weirdness was not what I needed to start my new week.

I'm feeling so mindless right now.

我已经没有需要用电脑. Mais, si j'arrete maintenant, je sens que je n'ai pas essayer faire mes devoirs.


Mr. D. Qu'il me tue.


Just finish doing a quiz my lecturer posted on FB. Seriously, as a student in Advance French, i really failed =(

Really?

That was the first time i almost had an emotional breakdown in public. What was i bothered about again? Myself? Or them?

Honestly. It is both. I'm such a problematic child! Why can't i just be carefree and happy-go-lucky like the rest?

I hate the fact that those people who act smart/ lan lek with the 欠打 face and attitude along the way, eventually get smart. Unfortunately. Just keep away from me la. I HATE it.

Also hating the fact that i'm so stupid/bodoh/brainless/hopeless. Nyama!

Here We Go Again

Well, it's August.
A new semester, a fresh start.

Only the first week, assignments are piling up already. How can i cope with this?

I hope my life does not end with studies. I hate studying, i hate attending lectures.

The 4 months of holidays had build my relationship with my dancing buddies and my sisters. Spending a day without them is horrible. Total crap-eating-crap horrible. I can't joke, i can't laugh, i can't go crazy. This is nuts! I'M going nuts. Best part, it's only the FIRST WEEK!

Sometimes i feel it's just me, having to host this negative aura around (i always do). I have friends, yes, i do. But, why, what is it that i'm searching for so desperately to convince me that everything is fine, to tell me that i'm not that lonely loser college girl.

Aih.........................It's the classes..right? That's why i'm 'losing it'?

I don't feel that comfortable feeling around anybody anymore.

Just, please. Hang in there.