Touched by an angel

No words can describe how fortunate I am to have made friends with you

I know writing a post about how happy I am is just an exaggeration

But..

It took me awhile to open the package you dropped me.

I was so afraid that it was something that I can't compete with

Something that I know will make me hate myself for not getting you anything special

Something that would definitely make me cry

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And it did

I hated myself for not thinking through what to get you

I cried from reading the message you left me. 

Damn it, all those touching messages (this is not the first)

No matter what I do or say

It will never be close to what i'm feeling to have a friend like you 

Without all the support and encouragement,

I definitely will not  be sitting down here thanking you for it

One day,

You'll come to realise how special you are from within

Everybody likes a friend/worker/lover who is

honest, hardworking, organised, smart caring, loving, funny, humble, SUPER polite, and sometimes lazy,

"Someone like you" - Adele

I may not be all that, 

but you made the best in me,

these 2 years

I can't thank you enough

=')

Why am I getting so emotional for, 

not like it's our last goodbye

Anyways, 

Stay strong

Last Karaok

Just got back from a day out with my family (except dad)

This time we went

Quite productive.

Everyone sang.

well, let's let the pictures do the talking alright..

Do wish we could do this more often

(",)/"

This is for You BD33

To all my smart, caring, sweet, eager to learn, highly motivated, hardworking, intelligent, dedicated, passionate and loving college mates/classmates of mine. Firstly, thank you for stopping by, i promise this will not take long.

Alright now, "LISTEN!" -Ms Bridget
I'm not good at saying goodbyes or writing essays, so please excuse my poor English.

It has been 4 years, we are taught a lot. (In Mr Pierre's slang) "I don't know uh..but if you ask me, the journey is quite spicy....yes?"

From learning how to carve a chicken with Miss Jasmine to learning about wine with Mr Joaquim. Some hand tricks taught by Mr Patrick too. I honestly never knew there are so many things to be exposed to.

Anywayzz, Boyzz andzz Girlzz (some will get this >.<), in order to make Mr Wong proud with appropriate Guestology skills, be sure not to be influenced to be a LalaZai or LalaMui, people like Mr Yeoh Boon Chye would not be satisfied with the service. Also, Mervyn, don't go around disappointing Ms Rajaa with your creative sign languages ok?

This is the end of uni life, UNIVERSITY, we're adults now. However, age is merely a number, it is what we've done and achieved that are important. People like Mr Adrian Yao would not be bothered bout this though, he is forever young.

These 4 years, we laughed and cried together. Some of us fell in love, some fell out of love, some could not get any love..don't worry though, there are many 'colourful birds' in the sky (if you know what i mean).

To all those that I've angered intentionally or unintentionally, I'm really sorry. If you're not satisfied with this public announcement, tell me personally my wrongdoings and I'll find a way to make it up to you. To those who've angered me.....well, it depends how bad it is =P

Finally, to those who are always there for me, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE =)
Thank you, really, for keeping me alive. It would take more than a lifetime to repay you guys and I really appreciate it.

I shall stop here, I'm talking too much there's an accumulation at the side of my mouth. (See below)

Once again, thanks for your time. And I dedicated this song to you all =) Well, i have a sister that can sing, but she does not wanna help me out on this so...please excuse my 'talent'.
(PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT I'M NOT BORN TO SING, SORRY FOR MY VOICE)

Self Actualization

Know i'm not suppose to even think about blogging at this hour but, yeah, i'm doing it.

This semesters' finals is the least thing that is bothering me right now.
I have done a lot of of thinking about really, just a lot of random stuff.

One of it is: To block or not to block.
I have this friend on FB which irritates me a lot, no offense. He is a good friend and a good guy, but it is just sometimes, no, all the time..he tends to be overly dramatic or overreact. This, i find really irritating because, ALL of hi post, have a minimum of 5 lines! FIVE!
There was actually a discussion on FB posted by my friend regarding those whom express their feelings on FB. She mentioned that it is not wrong to express what you feel, but whether or not it is irritating other people, that is the issue. And another friend commented that if it bothers you that much, you can either block or unsubscribe that person.

Now, back to my friend. Thing about me is..i don't like blocking or unsubscribing my friends on FB unless they really piss me of like, physically and mentally, like the real harm done. But he, he did not do nuts, only posts annoyingly LONG posts...and it's all about him! Trust me, if it's regarding the world or peace, i would not be bothered much about it. Also, if he or she is someone who checks on to FB once in a bluemoon and posts long post, i'm fine. But he logs on to FB just as often as I do.
So yeah, i'm having this dilemma on whether i should unsubscribe or not. Seeing that, he definitely don't know about what i'm feeling towards this matter and he obviously is not going to stop.

Another thing is: I thought I had changed.
I started being a smiley dovey girl, since i was form 3. And it certainly did change me socially. I have more friends and fans, more motivated, more active. Somehow,i still have this feeling that, the internal old me still lingers around. Yes, i would be all smiling and stuff on the outside, but when it comes to initiating the first move in talking with people, i suck.
Maybe that is the reason why I can't get along with college people eh.

It is just a shame to know that, my whole life, these friends of mine from college, are merely acquaintances. After college, the least they would care or think about is me. It is either I can't fit into a group, or i'm just hanging out with people who have their own group, and sending time with me is just a part time thing to do while their away from their group. So it can be concluded that i'm stil a sad lonely, emo rolling stone like i was before putting on those smiles.

But there is nothing I can do about it. I cant change the way people want tot treat me or see me as. Just hope that, one day, there is someone who truly cares about me.

Kill me

Hi, blog, today is Wednesday. Next Monday is my finals of all finals and then i graduate. What more do you (my brain) need to convince yourself that this is another SPM?? Can you please stop lingering around? Do you know how much I (body) am shaking of worries? GOODNESS! WAKE UP!

The 2nd Sunday of May

That's right..

It's Mother's Day

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What have I done?

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The Last Month

Exactly one month from now

I won't be able to see these faces

for a period of 6months long

 (From left) Yuen, Me, Dad, Mei,Mom

Bro and his gf (Lena)

So..

I whipped up a dinner as my own farewell in advance

This would not be a success without Lena for accompanying me in grocery shopping

and Yuen, who helped walk up and down to pass things and ingredients to me.

Finally, thanks for everyone (Yuen, Mei and Mom) who helped finished the dinner and washed the dishes.

What i made today:

For starter,

Prawn salad with citron vinaigrette that i bought from France

 I separated them in case my sisters wanted to deep the prawns in mayo

Main course was

Chicken stuffed with Pilaf Rice and Parmesan Cheese

The reaction i got from this dish was unexpected.

My mom and bro liked the sauce and the texture of the chicken

Which is quite funny, because I thought i overcooked it 

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The other main course is 

Dory fillet with lemon butter sauce

I had to make two choices because my sister is a pescatarian

My main accomplishment here is the sauce

Because i have never made a successful butter sauce before

Since diploma, my beurre blanc would always split

Now, I can't use alcohol cause i have an underage sister

Therefore white wine is substituted with lemon juice

Freshly squeezed lemon juice

It's more sour than expected but my mom liked it..

Haha..

Finally, dessert

Let's just say it's meringue with custard?

The custard sauce failed but 

It is still edible

and my family loved it so..

what the heck 

=)

The ingredients used for these dishes are posted up on my food blog

Sadly,we did not take a family photo and dad was not here =(

I Just Don't

Yes, i'm talking (fb message) to you.
I told you multiple times to stop calling. It may be normal to you, but what perception will you leave me?
The same old, clingy, despo. So please, just stop, it's irritating.

I'm not angry at you anymore, I've moved on. Somehow there is still this feeling of instinct telling me to stay away. It's not caused by anger nor hatred. The feeling is more of fear. Please, understand that what you done, has tattooed me, mentally.

A friend once told me, i'm an idiot, for I do not know howto speak my mind. Indeed, i am. And here i am, thinking how to further express my feelings right now.

Stop freaking apologizing to me for nuts. It's pissing me off! But how do I tell you without you apologizing some more?

Disgusted in a way.

Honestly, don't know how else to encode what i'm feeling right now in words.